For the first time in my 27 years on this planet I am on my own. I don’t count living in a dorm or having a bed in a sorority house as living on my own. I’ve always had someone whether it be my x husband or my parents looking out for me, making sure my bills were paid, and that I had everything I could need or want.
I am living in an apartment for the first time ever. It was an adjustment going from a 3,000 sq ft home to an 850 sq ft apt, but I’m making it work. I’ve come to learn it’s easier to clean, yet if something breaks I have no idea how to fix it. But I’m learning, my friends are showing me the ropes and I think I am a quick study. I’ve even learned how to check my oil too. Quite impressive for me, I’d say.
At first when I got a divorce, I was a fraid of the unknown, I had no plan or a place to land. I just knew I had to break free, no woman deserves to go through what I did. My single life started out a little erough, I still don’t understand the whole situation, nor do I think I ever will. But that situation helped me see a friends true colors, well needless to say I don’t speak to them any more. I haven’t spoken to my FWB in a while either. Oh well such is life, men come and go, some leave an impression on us, others fade like the wind.
I also managed to get sick. Nothing shocks you back into reality like a good health scare. Leave it to the mayo to figure it out and put me back together again. So I am healing and thriving, and thankfully I am still capable of having children. Yay!
I’m slowly easing my way into the dating scenic, I’ve been on a few and I’ve forgotten how much a first date is like a job interview. It’s funny having to say “yes, i am divorced” on a first date. But, hey who isn’t divorced these days right.
Speaking of interviews I am working on my law school applications. An I am super psyched that I do not have to retake the LSAT, I don’t think I could pull a perfect 180 out of my ass again. I am a late bloomer, but I am ready to go now and to show the law community how awesome i am. After all do you know the correlation between abortion and slavery? I do:)
I am excited for what the future has in store for me. Greatful for my true friends who know, love, and push me to become better. I’ve lost a few along the way, but they were only meant to be in my life for a short while. Two gals catering is taking off and my pure romance divas have been a life line of support. So I can honestl say that living on my own isn’t so bad, I am thriving and surviving. Go bear go:)
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Independence Day…….
Today is July 4th, today is the day I am moving all of my stuff out of my suburban home and taking it to the city. Today I am taking my independence back. This is my first holiday alone, my first one as a singleton in five years. I won’t get to see the joy on Nylans facenas he watches the fire works explode in the sky or his excitement when they are shot off in his driveway. There be no BBQ this year, there will be no hand holding or dogs cowering I fear as the loudest boom rolls across the sky.
It’s a day filled with tears and joy, a day I will remember. As my friends gather at the red house to help me put my life In boxes, dry my tears, and help me sort though the memories of the pastmfive years. I am only taking Freckles with me, leaving Mystra and Hazel to help Scott cope with the fact that he realized his wrongs a little to late as he watches the best thing that ever happened to him walk out that door one last time.
Today I am taking my indendance back! Divorce isn’t an end, it’s a beautiful begining!