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{Baby E} Un-Due Date

We should be counting down the days, the days until you arrive. I should be injecting myself for the last time and giving myself a pep talk for the impending c-section. We should be excitedly expecting a CoraLeigh or Olivier. Jay and I should be double checking the woodland themed nursery, the car seat, hospital … Continue reading

{I Am A Mother} To An Angel is NOT supportive of all Moms

  After we lost baby E, I was searching for a connection with other angel mommies and a friend suggested I follow the “I am a mother to an Angel” Facebook page. I took up her suggestion and hit like, I also joined the private group “Awaiting Rainbows: TTC after a loss.” The  ladies in this … Continue reading

{Nuva Ring} She Had to Break, Before She Could Shine

One email told me that my settlement check had been cut and mailed out. I knew that the post office closed at 5PM, so today wasn’t going to be my ending. I got home at 5:10, breezed past my Birchbox and opened the mail box to find the all important “we missed you card.” The … Continue reading

{Happy Birthday} Goodbye 32, Hello 33

   I of all people know that with trial comes triumph. We cannot have the good moments without the bad. It’s how the world turns, no one’s life is meant to be perfect. A perfect life is a life not well lived. Mistakes are lessons and trials are our teachers, with each trial we gain … Continue reading

{Hearts on 22} Life, It Goes On 

“Dear 26 year old Self, If I had known what was going to happen today I would never have gotten out of bed. But you being the optimist got up, you put your cranberry colored flats on, left a half eaten muffin on the counter, guzzled some coffee, and drove off to work. You just … Continue reading

{Lucia & Baby E} My Babies You Will Always Be

  “For as long as I am breathing, my babies you will always be” In story books, everything is perfect. Girl meets her prince, her prince knocks her up, and nine months later the family of two becomes three. The writers make pregnancy out to be magical and easy. On the pages, every woman gets pregnant, … Continue reading

{Charlie} Ruin Is A Gift

A few weeks back I was sitting in a park sipping on a berry white mocha with a dear friend when she brought up the fact that I no longer write about Charlie. She asked me “Do you not love him anymore AJ? Do you not miss him anymore?” The thing about loss is we … Continue reading

{Muppet like Dog} It was me who got rescued 

  It’s hard to believe that five years ago today I left work sick “cough cough” and drove 6 hours to get a dog. A dog that I had never seen, but Pam and Carrie said was the perfect fit for me. I trusted the Whipstaff Ranch ladies and I knew in my heart that this … Continue reading

{Engaged Life} Jay Asked, and I said……………….

Five years ago on July 4th I stepped into the unknown. I’ve always had a plan or a solution, for the first time in 27 years it was just me and the unknown. What lay in the unknown terrified me and kept me up at night. I was so worried that I would never make … Continue reading

{Life Lessons) One Little Genetic Accident 

When Lucia died I was never given the option for genetic testing, instead I had to literally demand it. Many thousands of dollars later we learned that he was genetically and chromosomally perfect. There was no why or a how behind his death. He just simply stopped being and for some strange reason that news … Continue reading

NinjaInTheCity Life in Photos

I asked Jay to bring home something sweet. He brings home one of my favorite pies. ♥️ #HeIsAKeeper @soulposeyoga #lifeiswhy @goredforwomen @american_heart #strokesurvivor doing yoga @soulposeyoga #LifeIsWhy #strokeSurvivor I can do YOGA @goredforwomen @american_heart @soulposeyoga Twin Cities! Grow a Zombie, they said. Add water, they said. It's all mine! All mine!!!!!

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